Friday, December 23, 2011

12/23/11 - MI 3, Failure to Launch

One of my new-found blogger friends, John aka BlackSheep fka Gatorep, recently asked me if I had given up on my blog. Since it has been 10 days since I last made an entry I can completely understand his wonderment. No, I have not given up. I promise. I will never give up - on my blog OR my goals, but I must admit... I too am bewildered.

At the onset I said that I don't know how to juggle my j.o.b. that keeps a roof over my head and food on the table, and still have time AND energy left over for the things I really want to do. How does one do all of that while working 60-70 hours/week?!? Don't get me wrong. I know tons of people are able to juggle this and more, especially people with children, and especially the single parents out there. I know I'm not unique in this aspect, but I honestly do not know how to do it and obviously don't seem to be capable of doing it all. Not being able to blog or write these last 10 days has been extremely! frustrating for me.


I spent two hours this morning tweaking, revising and reworking my monthly budget every which way I could, trying to come up with a way to live on a part-time job. If I didn't have my 3 animals, I could do it, but I will not abandon them. Right or wrong, they are my family and they depend on me. I will gladly take care of them for the rest of their lives. So, I feel stuck. Will take any words of encouragement or advice my dear readers have to offer.

As for MI3 - completing Dad's tribute albums by Christmas... Is it failure to launch if one completely changes their mind? In what little spare time I have been able to carve out, I have been working on his albums, but since my skills are rusty, they just weren't turning out like I want them to. It is too important, HE is/was too important, to just half-ass it so I chose to take a different tack (sorry about the "French").

I have printed copies of all the pictures I have for Dad's album (62 so far). At the various family parties this weekend, I will let everyone decide which photos they want in their album. They will also be given the opportunity to get additional photos to me. They won't get their album by Christmas, but they will get to see what it is going to look like and the one they do get will be customized. I hope that is a good compromise. It will allow me to hone my skills and honor Dad with a better product.

So, MI 3 not exactly complete but I'm trying to tell myself it's not exactly a failure either. When I have a finished product I'm proud of, I'll post pics for you to see. The 1st family gathering is tonight. Wish me luck!

 And by the way, here is a picture of my official Christmas card that went out to everyone. Well, almost everyone - as many as I could afford. I printed 60 and it turns out I could have used 160. How blessed am I!?! I hope you and yours are having a very blessed, very happy, and very Merry Christmas season so far. Love and hugZ, D

8 comments:

  1. Most definitely NOT a failure but just a bump in the road. I too wondered where you'd been but I figured you were all wrapped up in the photo project.

    I actually think it's cool that you're letting people choose what pictures they want and will customize later. That will take the pressure off you and make it even more special for them.

    As for finding time, didn't we talk about setting boundaries when it comes to all the "over and above" stuff you do at work but don't get paid for. I mean seriously... they don't know how lucky they are to have you!

    And a quick tip. When you get time write a few posts and schedule them out. That way you fool us into thinking you're here :p

    Merry Christmas!

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  2. And you look great in that picture! Red is definitely your color :)

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  3. Oh Maria, thank you. You always lift my spirits. As of 1/2/12, my salary will be reduced to a minimum base and I'll be working for commissions. I see no possibility of the hours lessening but I'm about to bust out of my chrysalis. I feel it, I know it, I just don't know how. Am open to all possibilities tho. Love, love, love the blog posting tip. Didn't even know you could do that. Thanks again Maria. HugZ!

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  4. Yes, just a bump in the road as Maria said...you are not a failure...you are much to hard on yourself girl---you've GOT TO STOP THAT!!

    And that is a lovely picture!! I would take that brown hound off your hands anytime!! Bet he could keep my feet warm!!

    Enjoy the weekend....have a nice Christmas...will pray for you.

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  5. I find that creativiness requires energy. When l'm tired after travelling or working long days, l have a very hard time stringing together a scentence or two. You are not alone.

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  6. @BlackSheep - I agree! I wish I could wave a magic wand or something. If you've got one, I'll gladly borrow it. ;) And thank you, that beautiful brown hound is actually a girl. Her name is Nonni and she's just as sweet as she is pretty. She's a Rhodesian Ridgeback. I hope you are having a great Christmas weekend. HugZ!

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  7. @ Tammy - I love your blog, and by reading it I happen to know that you are always able to string together sentences, flights, shopping, baking, etc. You are definitely an inspiration! Thank you for understanding and Merry Christmas!

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  8. Just stopping by for a quick MERRY CHRISTMAS!

    Have a great day :)

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