Thursday, March 15, 2012

3/15/12 – Goodbye to Dolly

I have exhausted all possibilities and it does not appear I will be driving off in Dolly. I am very sad today.
 
And it doesn’t help that today marks an ominous anniversary for me. Two years ago, family and friends helped me pack my belongings and I left Austin; leaving my home and my then, soon to be ex-husband.
 
I had wanted my own home my entire life.  You see, I went to an average of 3 schools per year growing up. Needless to say, we moved around a lot.  Having my own home was very important to me.  It was mine, not ours.   It was in my name, and it nearly killed me when I lost it.
 
Now, exactly two years later, I am told that I cannot get financing for Dolly - or any RV for that matter.  I’ll climb out of this mess, eventually, but for now the dream is dead.

I still have a LOT to be grateful for, and I still feel very blessed. On bad days I sometimes joke that "at least I'm not a vegetable", and since that was a very real possibility for me, everything else seems to pale in comparison.

I'm just licking my wounds a little right now.  Some favorite sayings come to mind:

This Too Shall Pass. 
(by Abraham Lincoln and many others)
***
Remember, wherever you go, there you are.
(by my friend - the late, great R.T. Miles)
***
If your problems have only to do with something time or money can solve,
then you "ain't" got real problems.
(anonymous)
***
God is never early. He's never late either.
 
From now on, I will blog about my day-to-day events and my preparations for the dream life, but you will see no more posts from me about RVs until I know it can actually happen.

Wait on the Lord; be of good courage,
and He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord! 
(Psalm 27:14)
***
Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him,
and He shall bring it to pass.
(Psalm 37:5)

I'll be back on a happier note soon. I'm not giving up and will continue doing whatever I can to move forward. But for now my wonderful readers, I close with two songs by Carole King (right click and open in new tab, IE works best):

and

14 comments:

  1. It just wasn't meant to be-----------not now anyway.....hang in there and keep going forward...maybe some friend will hit the lottery and share with you!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ John - thank you! I'll feel better soon, and will move forward as fast as my feet can fly. Am reminded of the old Rowan & Martin's Laugh-In joke, "Feet Don't Fail Me Now." LOL.

      Delete
    2. Debra, you don't need friends who hits the lottery.You have enough with friends.Your Belgian friend. Patrick
      Enjoy the future moment we meet us somewhere along the road.
      http://www.myspace.com/music/player?sid=31636253&ac=now

      Delete
    3. @ Patrick - yes, I am blessed with many wonderful friends. I look forward to the day we meet my Belgian friend. One of us will have to get that boat/rv from my 2/28 blog so we can cross the ocean. LOL. Glad you like that Sweet Seasons by Carole King, one of my favorites.

      Delete
  2. If that friend is me I'll share it with everyone!

    Debra I know your dream is closer than you think it is. I can feel it :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ Maria - I know you would. You sweet thing. And I hope you're right. xxo

      Delete
  3. Ditto what Maria said,be of good spirit and in his time it will be made known. Praying 4 you!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ Joe - Agreed. And my good spirits will return. I never stay down for too long. Thank you!

      Delete
  4. Debra, there are two other resources I could think of off the top of my head you can look at. Have you tried credit unions. as a rule of thumb usually serve only those who work at a particular type of work. But there are credit union that open doors to others as well. Try calling around local credit unions and see if anyone can open an account with them or not. They tend to be a little more flexible with loans and such. Because every member has a say on how the credit union is run. Another suggestion is a website called
    www.wishuponahero.com which you can go to and Make-A-Wish let's say for a personal loan for this RV. Note T anyone will grant your wish but if you don't make it then you don't get a chance to get it granted. All you can do is castanet upon the waters and see what you catch. You're in my prayers. God bless. 8^)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ Trina - Thank you for thinking of me, and thank you for the prayers.

      Delete
  5. this to shall pass was my mothers favorite saying so it is also something i say all the time. Time heals all things, is another. this is not a problem that can not be fixed with lots of time, so hang in there. and when I had things i wanted and wished for mother always said if wishes were horses all beggars would ride, which helped me not at all and will not help you either. just had to say it.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ Sandra - love your mother. Old sayings are the best. It's not just a matter of "wanting" something or wishing for something, it's an actual need. 'Wish' I could explain it, but it will happen when it happens. His time, not mine. Evidently. ;)

      Delete
  6. I'm sorry that your dream was pushed to the back burner. At least you still have a fire under it though and you haven't turned it off. Keep dreaming and you'll get there some day

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. @ Ann - The embers remain & will be lit bright again one day. I just know it. Your kind words help. Thank you.

      Delete