I have exhausted all possibilities and it does not appear I will be driving off in Dolly. I am very sad today.
And it doesn’t help that today marks an ominous anniversary for me. Two years ago, family and friends helped me pack my belongings and I left Austin; leaving my home and my then, soon to be ex-husband.
I had wanted my own home my entire life. You see, I went to an average of 3 schools per year growing up. Needless to say, we moved around a lot. Having my own home was very important to me. It was mine, not ours. It was in my name, and it nearly killed me when I lost it.
Now, exactly two years later, I am told that I cannot get financing for Dolly - or any RV for that matter. I’ll climb out of this mess, eventually, but for now the dream is dead.
I still have a LOT to be grateful for, and I still feel very blessed. On bad days I sometimes joke that "at least I'm not a vegetable", and since that was a very real possibility for me, everything else seems to pale in comparison.
I'm just licking my wounds a little right now. Some favorite sayings come to mind:
This Too Shall Pass.
(by Abraham Lincoln and many others)
Remember, wherever you go, there you are.
(by my friend - the late, great R.T. Miles)
If your problems have only to do with something time or money can solve,
then you "ain't" got real problems.
God is never early. He's never late either.
From now on, I will blog about my day-to-day events and my preparations for the dream life, but you will see no more posts from me about RVs until I know it can actually happen.
Wait on the Lord; be of good courage,
and He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him,
and He shall bring it to pass.
I'll be back on a happier note soon. I'm not giving up and will continue doing whatever I can to move forward. But for now my wonderful readers, I close with two songs by Carole King (right click and open in new tab, IE works best):