Wednesday, May 30, 2012
5/30/12 - Illuminating Yes
My blog post yesterday bothered me. I'm glad I shared it because it definitely represents an important part of my journey to the open road, but it just didn't feel right. It didn't come from a place of light, and my heart and my mind were in discord. I want to turn the momentum around to the positive.
I recently listened online to a sermon given by my friend, Rev. David Howard. The title of his talk is Conscious Choice and in it he talks about illumined consciousness and the 3 foundational lies we can find ourselves living if we're not careful:
1) I don't have enough --> I need more.
2) I don't do enough --> I need to do more.
3) I am not enough --> I need to be more.
I no longer feel the need to have more and consequently I do not feel trapped by the 1st one. In fact, unless you count my desire for an RV, I want less. I carry things out of this apartment on a daily basis and for quite awhile now, with rare exception, I haven't purchased anything that's not consumable. In this move, I really brought 5 times the quantity I need, but at least I have time to pare down as much as I want before going mobile.
I digress. Mea culpa.
The lie that sneaks up on me is that I need to do more to be more. I need to write more so that I can be successful. I need to work more so that I can be mobile. I need to do more so that I can be a better daughter, friend, Aunt, neighbor, employee - on and on, infinitum. ENOUGH!
David also talks about making conscious choices based on YES rather than no.
For example, I really, really, really do not like to shop. I recently ran out of coffee filters. I kept saying to myself, "I don't want to go shopping, but I'm really tired of being without coffee." I was trying to pick the lesser of 2 evils. I literally said out loud, "Well, I don't want to be without coffee anymore," and began gathering my keys and purse. Then it hit me.
Even this simple scenario was a great example for illuminating the YES instead of the no. So I dropped the no's, dropped the negatives, and quit basing the decision on what I didn't want. (Thank you David.) So, I said YES to coffee instead of no to being without. It's just a slight tweak but one that makes all the difference. My whole attitude changed.
The same concept applies to my blog post yesterday and my social sabbatical:
I don't want to be spread too thin and constantly be drained from social commitments
--> I am saying YES to taking care of myself and giving my hopes and dreams a chance.
I don't want to get mental or depressed over this -->
I am saying YES to the energy and creativity being released.
I am saying YES to being blessed.
I am saying YES to the joy that swells in my heart.
I don't want to lose anyone from my life over this -->
I am saying YES to letting loved ones know how much they mean to me, NMW.
I am saying YES to the outpouring of love and support I receive on a daily basis.
I don't want to do all this and nothing come of it -->
I am saying YES to whatever God and the universe has in store.
I am saying YES to doing the next right thing and leaving the results up to God.
And last but not least, I am saying YES to the Grace of Jesus Christ (not religion) that I so readily forget about yet live in every second of every day. Through God, all things are possible (ref, Matthew 19:26).
In his sermon, David goes on to say that there are also 3 truths:
1) God is light.
2) We are an expression of that light.
3) With faith and trust, that light will guide us to the greatest unfolding of our life experience.
I feel that I am in the throng of that unfolding, and I say YES.
Joseph Prince says, "God is abundance and inexhaustible supply. He is not El Cheapo. He is El Shaddai - the Almighty. Break out of a mentality of lack by choosing to fix your eyes on an abundant God, who has put His unlimited resources at your disposal."
I hope everyone says YES to that.