Wednesday, May 30, 2012

5/30/12 - Illuminating Yes

My blog post yesterday bothered me.  I'm glad I shared it because it definitely represents an important part of my journey to the open road, but it just didn't feel right.   It didn't come from a place of light, and my heart and my mind were in discord.  I want to turn the momentum around to the positive.

I recently listened online to a sermon given by my friend, Rev. David Howard.  The title of his talk is Conscious Choice and in it he talks about illumined consciousness and the 3 foundational lies we can find ourselves living if we're not careful:

1)  I don't have enough --> I need more.
2)  I don't do enough --> I need to do more.
3)  I am not enough --> I need to be more.

I no longer feel the need to have more and consequently I do not feel trapped by the 1st one.  In fact, unless you count my desire for an RV, I want less.  I carry things out of this apartment on a daily basis and for quite awhile now, with rare exception, I haven't purchased anything that's not consumable.  In this move, I really brought 5 times the quantity I need, but at least I have time to pare down as much as I want before going mobile.

I digress. Mea culpa.

The lie that sneaks up on me is that I need to do more to be more.  I need to write more so that I can be successful.  I need to work more so that I can be mobile.  I need to do more so that I can be a better daughter, friend, Aunt, neighbor, employee - on and on, infinitum.  ENOUGH!

David also talks about making conscious choices based on YES rather than no.

For example, I really, really, really do not like to shop.  I recently ran out of coffee filters.  I kept saying to myself, "I don't want to go shopping, but I'm really tired of being without coffee."  I was trying to pick the lesser of 2 evils.  I literally said out loud, "Well, I don't want to be without coffee anymore," and began gathering my keys and purse.  Then it hit me.

Even this simple scenario was a great example for illuminating the YES instead of the no.  So I dropped the no's, dropped the negatives, and quit basing the decision on what I didn't want.  (Thank you David.)  So,  I said YES to coffee instead of no to being without.  It's just a slight tweak but one that makes all the difference.  My whole attitude changed.

The same concept applies to my blog post yesterday and my social sabbatical:

I don't want to be spread too thin and constantly be drained from social commitments
--> I am saying YES to taking care of myself and giving my hopes and dreams a chance.

I don't want to get mental or depressed over this -->
          I am saying YES to the energy and creativity being released.
          I  am saying YES to being blessed.
          I am saying YES to the joy that swells in my heart. 

I don't want to lose anyone from my life over this -->
          I am saying YES to letting loved ones know how much they mean to me, NMW.
          I am saying YES to the outpouring of love and support I receive on a daily basis.

I don't want to do all this and nothing come of it -->
          I am saying YES to whatever God and the universe has in store.
          I am saying YES to doing the next right thing and leaving the results up to God.

And last but not least, I am saying YES to the Grace of Jesus Christ (not religion) that I so readily forget about yet live in every second of every day.  Through God, all things are possible (ref, Matthew 19:26).

In his sermon, David goes on to say that there are also 3 truths:
1)  God is light.
2)  We are an expression of that light.
3)   With faith and trust, that light will guide us to the greatest unfolding of our life experience.

I feel that I am in the throng of that unfolding, and I say YES.

Joseph Prince says, "God is abundance and inexhaustible supply.  He is not El Cheapo.  He is El Shaddai - the Almighty.  Break out of a mentality of lack by choosing to fix your eyes on an abundant God, who has put His unlimited resources at your disposal."

 I hope everyone says YES to that.


  1. this reminds me a saying from a counselor in overcomers meetings. When the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change, we will change. OR SHOP... tee hee.

  2. @ Sandra - you are so funny. I love it. Tee hee, indeed. :) I forgot about this saying - thanks for the reminder!

  3. Well that sermon was just the ticket to put everything into the right perspective and give you an even clearer picture of what you're going for.

    1. @ Ann - wasn't it though? Sometimes God has a wicked sense of humor, I think. :)